Such a TROUBLEMAKER

Music ~> Aqua Timez - Present

Yea, I'm such a troublemaker, I'm useless, helpless, stupid, couldn't even solve a tiny problem that create by myself plus making people around me hates me, fight because of me, worry about me etc.

I just hates the feeling, hates that people around me worry about myself, fight because of me, hates me because I create the mess & blame other because of that mess...

Why should this all happen now?

Why when someone needs me, I'll there for them but when I need someone to stay by side, I dun have anyone by my side...

They act like they know what exactly happen but in reality, they dun know anything about me at all...

I know I hates to share my problem wit other but at least, I need someone to understand me & keep accompany me when I need it...

I just dun have anyone to share those feelings because I keep it deep inside my heart...

I try to smile everyday...

I try to laugh everyday...

I try to make everyone happy everyday...

I try to live my life as usual everyday...

I try to cheer everyday...

I try everything everyday...

I'm trying everything for every second, every minute,every hour, every day in my life to make sure that I'm not feel bad & make mess for everyone that I love...

I'm sorry for what I had done...

I just dunno how to express this feeling to other because I'm not share type of person, I mean, I could share almost anything to everyone but sometime I could just keep that feeling away instead of sharing it...

I know if I expose everything that I feel, I'm afraid that people around me will feel sad just because of that & I dun want that happen...

So I hope they could understand why I didn't share my problem wit them...

I got my own reason for not telling anyone about it...

I know I'm such a brat because not sharing it but I think better I keep it although it will hurt me but at least, it doesn't hurt other feelings...

Just let me alone for awhile because I'm the one who create the mess & I'm the one who suppose to clear it all because all mess come from me & to me it will come back...

Thanks for everyone who always be wit me...

I'll always appreciate what u had done to me although some of u don't but I'll still appreciate it because it apart of my precious memory that I'll carry until I die...

I'm such a TROUBLEMAKER

♥...So close but still faraway...♥