"You ain't got to tell me that we can still be friends
You ain't gotta make no excuses and pretend
Cause I'll be fine, said I'll be fine
There's no need to call
You ain't gotta make no excuses and pretend
Cause I'll be fine, said I'll be fine
There's no need to call
Now I can't believe, that I fell so deep
And I let my heart so open
Now I gotta try, to keep it inside
These words, are better left unspoken
And I let my heart so open
Now I gotta try, to keep it inside
These words, are better left unspoken
'Cause I still got my pride, I'm not gonna cry
There won't be no tears fallling from these eyes
Don't need him to see
That it's killing me
So this is what I'm saying
There won't be no tears fallling from these eyes
Don't need him to see
That it's killing me
So this is what I'm saying
You don't have to worry about me"
- I'll Be Fine, Stevie Hoang (Modified by me)
From that lyric... its say everything what I need to say now.
I don't know whether I should be happy with what I done now.
Its just keep playing in my mind right now whether my decision is right or wrong. I can't think it right for the answer of my own questions.
I could just keep think, think and think.
But couldn't help myself from getting the right answer.
Last time I asked that person, asked that person to be honest with me and the answer still remaining the same.
"I like you as friend"
Yeah, that's it.
I could just smiled and sighed while read the answer from my cellphone.
Some kind its kind hurt my heart but well, I couldn't ask more.
And yea, as I expected, its still the same answer from the start.
I didn't blame that person but I blame myself for being too stupid because I'm the one who start it all and as reward, things getting awkward between us.
I guess I need to move on.
I didn't see any benefits if I keep waiting because maybe there's someone more better is waiting for me, right?
Just need the right time and place for that person appear again.
What I do now is just waiting because I'm tired of finding one anymore.
Even its my first time but I'm already tired of it.
Tired of questioning myself with stupid questions.
Tired of getting all those answer for my stupid questions.
Tired of thinking about it.
Tired of thinking about that person who perhaps doesn't care about me at all.
Tired of waiting for being accepted by that person.
Oh yeah, I'll stop doing those thing anymore.
And I'll stop it and won't put my hope on that person anymore.
So, I declare for now, both of us just a friend.
The End.
♥...So close but still faraway...♥