*deep sigh* Why they still treat me like a 3 years old kiddo?
Why they keep their eyes on me?
Why they always wanna know where I go?
Why they always pay attention too much to me if they'll just ignore me alone after that?
Why all this happen to me? Why?
Just now I received a message from my frend ask me out this Tuesday for picnic...
And I just ask my parents whether I could go or not but I still haven't got the answer from them yet...
I know its still early for them to give the permission but I must get the answer ASAP because I might let my frendz down again...
And I dun wanna they feel like that anymore...
Because before this, just because of me, they had cancelled their plan for picnic at the river near our neighbourhood and now, they plan again but I'm afraid that I'll ruin everything again...
Wish I could be wit them but seems like I can't because my parents too take care of me...
*crying*
I dun mind if they take a good care of me because they're my parents and they know what the best for me but what I dun like is, when I didn't go...
The next day, they'll ask me about the plan that I had made...
I mean, what the purpose of asking those questions if they knew they dun let me go????
Come on, I'm already 19 and next year, I'll be 20 years old...
Until when I'll stuck in life like this?
If this still happen after I got my diploma, I think my dream to further my studies abroad won't come true because my parents will try their best to get the university near our house...
If the university is in front of my house, I think they'll try their best to get me into that university although its not good or suit for me...
God, please help me...
Although they won't let me out but please dun make me disobey them...
Because I love them very much, but sometime I feel like they dun care about me at all...
(>____<)
♥...So close but still faraway...♥